Image 12 Bowie The Christed Man

Dysfunctional pain is like a thorn, wedged in the heart; for some people it feels that acute. Some people, for instance, acquire brain damage from trauma. This is the kind of pain that is unable to get free from a situation that does not serve anyone's best interest. Everything within you is calling out for HELP.

This inability to get free is how some are controlled by their fear. Certainly it would feel as if God was gone, living in some foreign place! Fear becomes a rancid presence, festering as poison in one's life. It turns into all kinds of presumption and paranoia. It makes, for many people, a place of anger as a "comfort zone". You will observe this with people who are more comfortable being angry than they are being comfortable. Something terrible and unresolved is going on, and help is needed. What I am describing are neurological programs in the deep subconscious... Bodily reactions being controlled by Repetitions in thought and attitude; reactions that undermine one's ability to be genuine, spontaneous. Some pain is physical, some psychological; but to be in this position is to truly feel a gap in your life.

Do you think you can get by in life without intimacy and partnerships? Do you feel like you do all the work in your relationships? This is the wake-up call.

There are those who will instead turn to drugs, alcohol, food, sex, and other addictions... Pain in itself becomes an addiction! Where really is the comfort we seek? In addiction, old programs remain lodged in the realms of the subconscious. These then become stray "thought-forms", regulating our lives in the forms of assumption and belief. It is easy to forget that beliefs are simply sets of ideas! Yet, they are hypnotic, and their effects can dry-up our life-force energy. Religions are created as a kind of moral code. What is yours? "What if" you have to learn how to live with this pain? What is it going to take to accommodate it? How do you find life Outside of it?

"Love is the greatest pain-killer." - William S. Burroughs on his deathbed.

The Christed Man is about suspending your participation in the past, so you can get a different perspective. It's about surrender: surrender to the process of getting better, being better; surrender the things and people you can't handle. Surrender to the fact that there are some things you don't logically "know"! Under Pressure, "I don't know" is sometimes the most honest answer. To discontinue a negative experience, another option might be to withdraw your support of a situation or leave it altogether. We have to come to terms with our own truth before we can level with other people. Many spiritual people practice celibacy as a way of releasing their personal investments in the lower emotions like jealousy, desire, need for approval, rejection, etc. Many of us prioritize spiritual friendship over sex and desire.

This card is about Let Go and Let God. Surrender to that professional help you've been wanting. Go talk to that guru you wanted to meet. Call the wise woman you met at the public market. Let someone help you. Surrender the small stuff; surrender the big stuff too! Live and let live; allow and be. This is not a time to meddle in other people's stuff. You just got a "hello" from some psychic sidebar in your life, saying - hey, what's going on with your own stuff?

Placing down predicts upon what we "want" is not always useful. Make a sincere expression of what you wish for - then let it go. Surrender it over to Angels, Spirit Guides, Guardians and Ancestors. Stop leaking your energy by talking to people who are jealous and competitive. Stop bleeding your story. I guess I forgot to tell you - being sensitive is not easy. Surrender your need to be "right" about it. This is a deal between you and your spiritual resources. It's time surrender everything else on your list of importance and get right with God.

Surrender! "Just for a day." Rise above the self-grasping, or the need to be "attached". Figure out what it is that heals you and plug-in to it. If there are physical things holding you down, let them go. Clean out closets, rid yourself of things that don't fit; strip it down; break it down; repaint, renew; pass on; gift. Pray. Praying out loud generates vibrations in sound, and in this way we give our angels permission to intercede. Consider the sacred giveaway, which is to give to others without expectation, to make spirit-offerings. This is another way of talking to God. Tantric practitioners participate in sharing as a way of building trust with another. Sometimes when we are in the position of the Christed Man, it is only possible to share of our presence and not much of our personal being. When the ego is being busted-down, it is very hard to summon-up a "personality", and that's okay! See your actions as becoming gestures of spirit, light and goodwill. Trust in the sacred giveaway of your energy without attachment, presumption, or expectation.

Anger is a reaction to the fear. It is often difficult to let go of circumstances that are actually killing us. We suffer even more because the ego is stubborn and Dead Against It. The self-grasping ego hates surrender or change... For with surrender and the acceptance of change comes humility, let-go, and transmutation. This awareness is what is needed in order to fill your heart today.

You're already thinking about your death?

"I don't think there's been a time when I haven't [laughter]. I was ennobled with a romantic, cavalier attitude when I was younger, but it was still there. Now it's measured with rationality. I know that this life is finite and I have to accept that."

What's stopping you from believing in an afterlife?

"I didn't say I didn't! I believe in a continuation, a kind of a dream-state without the dreams... Oh, I don't know - I'll come back and tell you!"
- David Bowie; Raygun, Mar. 1997


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